Nakaka insecure/inggit/depress ung buhay ng ibang tao. That's the reason why i feel like i don't want to live anymore. I feel worthless. And i'm tired of convincing myself that i can be like them or better than them. Kaloka. Ayoko na sana umabot sa 2015, pero ayaw ko rin naman na ako ang magtatapos sa buhay ko <bad yun>. Gusto ko pa naman mabuhay. Nakaka emo lng kc bored na ako sa life, at ayoko rin ng sobrang hardship/happiness... Grabe, bata pa ako pero ayoko na mabuhay. Yung sana, sila na lng yung buhay at ako naman ang patay. I'm sorry kung emo ako, pagbigyan na. Magpapalit nanaman ng taon, and i know that there's more to life. Sana lang, kahit sa sarili ko, maging masaya ako without being jealous sa ibang tao.
"I hope that my next year will be better than last year.." -->posted Dec. 24, 2014
I know, my attitude is so not likeable. I may want attention, but I know that I won't get it all. And I apologize for being attention-seeker. That's one of my bad attitude. That's why I appreciate my friends who accept me as I am. I may not please anyone, but i won't change my attitude to please people. --> Posted Dec. 25, 2014
Sorry to spread the bad vibes. I just want to release the pain and let it go.
