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Low Carb and Intermittent Fasting (LCIF) transformation (a very short story)

Dito muna ako magsi-share ng konti tungkol sa transformation ko.

Starting weight: 167lbs / 76kg
Current weight: 69kg (as of May 1, 2020)
Goal weight (di ko pa naiisip)

1st pic - 2013 ; 2nd pic - 2020

Nagdecide akong sundin ang advice ng tita at lola ko (mother's side) na mag LCIF ako para mawala ang diabetes at polycystic ovarian syndrome ko. Ok pala kasi papayat din ako sa way of eating na ito. December ko pa mapapa-check kung may pcos pa ako o wala na.

Hanggang dito na lang muna. Pag ok na ang figure ko, sa LCIF fb group na ako magppost ng transformation story ko.

Ay Karma Yan - Uh Oh (Michael V parody of Oo sung by Up Dharma Down)

Kung walang kalan, maiisip mo bang

Makapagsaing nga nagugutom ako

Kung walang kalan hanggang sa gabi

Magsasawa ka sa delivery

Nagtalop, nagbalat

Maggigisa ng bawang

Paglingon ba’t ganon

Ako’y walang makitang

Lutuan saingan prituhan

Pano nga yan

Kaya kong lutuin yan 

Kung meron lang kalan

Kaya kong lutuin yan kung meron lang kalan

Ano bang malas yan

Nasa kawali na ang sisig at laman

Kung meron lang kalan

Di luto na sana yon

San ko ipiprito

Diba walang apoy, wag nga kayo

Ibilad lang sa araw

Subukan mo kaya

Iitim at babaho

Ang puto’t kutsinta

San ko na isasalang nilagang banana

Subukan mong ibilad sa araw

Ang tagal

Kung walang kalan

Saan pakukuluan ang baka

Kung pwede lang kailangan ko kalan

Mura lang naman

Kahit yung hulugan

Siguro di naman aabot ng buwan-buwan

Hindi naman kamahalan

Ang brand new na kalan

Kung meron lang kalan

Pano tayo magkakabenta nyan

Andami pa naman nating pakukuluan

Baka manok isda

Utak buto laman

Sige magprito ka

Wala namang kalang

Nagpapauso na naman

Uling at palayok

Ako’y nauubo

Sa batong may abo

At lintik pang umusok

Sayang at di ko naluto ang kanin at tinola

Kung walang kalan

Bakit yung nagdaraan na kariton

Tindero ng mais sa may tapat ng bahay ko

Kung walang kalan

Saan pakukuluan ang baka

Kung pwede lang kailangan ko kalan

Mura lang naman

Kahit yung hulugan

Siguro di naman aabot ng buwan-buwan

Hindi naman kamahalan

Ang brand new na kalan

Oh ohhh

Hay nako

Yan ang pag ipunan nyo

Kung walang kalan

Wag na mag restaurant

You are not alone

Nasa point ako ngayon na ang pakiramdam ko ay napaka weak kong tao. Yung ok lang mapag-iwanan kahit yung iba ay moving forward.

Pumapasok uli sa isip ko yung suicidal thoughts (naiisip ko na yan noon nung nasa high school pa ako) dahil lahat na lang ng negative things ang naiisip ko. Napapagod din naman kasi ako sa pagiging tambay at pagiging babysitter kaya kung ano-ano ang pumapasok sa isip ko.


Sabi nga nila, "...kalimutan mo na yan..." (LSS lang sa Hayaan Mo Sila ng Ex-Battalion), makaka move on ka rin. Madaling sabihin pero mahirap gawin.

Oo, mahirap gawin kapag nag-iisa ka. Magiging madali yan kapag merong mga tutulong sayo (family, friends, special someone) na magpapa-alala sayo na hindi ka naman talaga nag-iisa. At lalong hindi ka nag-iisa dahil lagi namang nandiyan ang Diyos, hinihintay ka lang Niya na manalangin at humingi ng tulong sa Kaniya.

Syempre, help yourself din naman. Naka suporta lang sila pero nasa sayo pa rin dapat ang initiative na mag move on at magbago. Sabi nga nila, God helps those who help themselves. Kung di mo sisimulan, edi wala talagang mangyayari at di ka matutulungan na mag move forward sa buhay.

Magsisimula pa lang ako bumangon sa pagkakalugmok sa kalungkutan. Alam ko kasi na hindi ako nag-iisa. Pina-realize sakin ng best friend ko na si Pau Encinares na dapat simulan ko na ang pagbabago ng mindset ko, para na rin di ako nakakasakit ng damdamin ng mga taong nakapaligid sakin at lalong di ko masaktan ang sarili kong damdamin.

Isa pa sa paghuhugutan ko ng lakas ay yung na-mention ko sa isa kong entry noong february. Di ko pa rin pwedeng i-specify kasi ayokong mawala yun sakin (tanga din kasi ako at maraming beses ko nang pinakawalan, buti nakakabalik sakin) at baka pag napakawalan ko uli ay tuluyan nang mawala sa akin.

At sana ay araw-arawin ko rin ang pananalangin para naman humingi ng tulong at gabay sa pagbabago ko.



Di ako makapagpahinga nang maayos ngayong hapon dahil sa random thoughts na yan. I hope mabawasan na yun dahil naisulat ko na dito yung ilan sa mga bumabagabag sa isip ko.

Pentatonix (The most awesome Acapella group)

PTX Wiki page      PTX official website     PTX YouTube channel

Short overview from Wikipedia:

Pentatonix (abbreviated PTX) is an American a cappella group from Arlington, Texas, consisting of vocalists Scott Hoying, Mitch Grassi, Kirstin Maldonado, Kevin Olusola and Matt Sallee. Avi Kaplan was formerly a member of the group; he was replaced by Sallee in 2017. Characterized by their pop-style arrangements with vocal harmonies, basslines, riffing, percussion and beatboxing, they are widely known for their covers, mostly of modern pop works or Christmas songs, sometimes in the form of medleys, along with original material. Pentatonix formed in 2011 and subsequently won the third season of NBC's The Sing-Off,receiving $200,000 and a recording contract with Sony Music. When Sony's Epic Records dropped the group after The Sing-Off, the group formed its YouTube channel, distributing its music through Madison Gate Records, a label owned by Sony Pictures. With over 13 million subscribers and 2.7 billion views, Pentatonix's YouTube channel is currently the 50th most-subscribed-to YouTube channel. The group's video tribute to Daft Punk had received over 250 million views as of mid 2017.

(masakit sa akin na hindi na si Avi ang bassist nila) (Yung Daft Punk medley ang una kong napanood sa kanila, si Avi ay napaka pogi sa video at sa kanya ako unang na-amaze)

Okay, bakit ko sila isinama sa blog site ko?

Gusto kong ibahagi sa inyo ang tumulong sa akin para mabawasan yung obsession ko sa maling tao. Sila ang kinahihiligan kong pakinggan simula nung na-discover ko sila noong 2015. Well, tatlo sila: PTX, David Archuleta at ang Daft Punk. Nadagdag ang Superfruit (Scott and Mitch from PTX) nung nilabas ang album nila na Future Friends.

Ito ang pinaka-unang napanood ko sa Pentatonix, ang Daft Punk medley :

Ang kantang ito ay nagmula sa PTX, Vol. II, na siyang naging inspirasyon sa tattoo ko ngayon:

Ang kantang Coldest Winter (original was sung by Kanye West) naman ang naging hugot song ko dahil sa lyrics na: "Goodbye my friend I won't ever love again."

Nakasama din ang Pentatonix sa Pitch Perfect 2. Sila yung Canadian group.

Hanggang dito na lang muna.. Hinihintay ko pa yung YouTube release ng bago nilang cover na Havana.

Random thoughts

I'm kinda back sa blog site ko. Matagal na rin nung huli akong gumawa ng entry.


I admit na namiss ko magbahagi ng kung ano man ang dapat na ibahagi dito. Kahit pa project lang ito noong college, mas gusto kong manatiling buhay at updated itong blog ko.


Anong bago sa akin?

Una, ako ngayon ay isang babysitter. July last year ako nagstart. Nararanasan ko ang hirap ng pag aalaga ng bata kahit wala pa akong anak. Naisip ko na lang na training ito sa akin kung saka-sakaling bibigyan ako ng anak (syempre pag nagka asawa na ako sa future).

Pangalawa, totoong pinalaya ko na ang sarili ko sa obsession na dapat ay matagal ko nang ginawa. Maluwag na ang kalooban ko kasi na let go ko na yung dapat pakawalan. Sorry at matagal pa akong nagkulong sa "preso" na di naman talaga dapat. Sana maging masaya siya kahit strangers na kami sa isa't isa...

Pangatlo, last year din dumating ito. Di ko pwedeng sabihin kung ano yun, pero masaya ako. Tinuruan ako nito ng acceptance sa sarili at sa iba. Ito na ang nagpapasaya sa akin hanggang ngayon (at sana hanggang sa pagtanda ko na). Sabi nga ni Ely sa Ang Huling El Bimbo, "...tinuruan mo ang puso ko na [umibig] nang tunay..." (basta tinuruan lang ako). Tinuruan akong maging mapag pasensya, maaruga, maunawain at mapagmahal. Ayoko na itong pakawalan kasi isang malaking katangahan kung gagawin ko iyon.



Ayan na lang muna. Marami pa namang pagkakataon para magbahagi ako ng somethings dito sa blog site ko.



P.s. kapag nakapag open ako sa PC, tuluyan ko nang buburahin dito sa blog yung alaala ng tinutukoy ko sa pangalawang random thought ko..

A Mother's Love (A short story of pain and love and a confession)

No PLAGIARISM intended. I did not have a draft for this entry. Sorry for being insensitive. ^.^v

“She is the creature of life, the giver of life, and the giver of abundant love, care and protection. Such are the great qualities of a mother. The bond between a mother and her child is the only real and purest bond in the world, the only true love we can ever find in our lifetime.”
― Ama H. Vanniarachchy

When it's time for the baby to come out to the world, the first person that's very excited and happy to see the newborn baby is the mother. Even though she felt tired after keeping the baby inside her body for nine months, she felt relieved while carrying her baby and seeing it look at smile at her. As time goes by, that baby grows fast, but her love for the child grows too, and it hurts her to see her child be hurt so she would do everything to protect the kid. 

Another period of time passes by and the kid grows physically and emotionally, and her love even grows stronger. But something's changed. She needs to work to be able to provide her kid's needs and wants. She works very hard and most of the time goes to traveling to and from work so they don't have quality/bonding time to spend with her kid. She endures the pain of not seeing/guiding her kid just to give the needs and wants of her kid. Then other changes occurs (and something bad happened). The kid feels alienated when seeing her mother during mother's free time staying at home. The mother and the kid become strangers to each other. The love they reciprocate to each other before turned into an unrequited love of a mother for her kid. 

Time goes by again, and the mother has to work to a far place. That time, the kid is already lost in terms of what's right and wrong because of the lack of guidance from the mother, and that kid made a very wrong deed. But the mother was so busy, she did not notice the changes that 's happening to her kid. She did not realize that the kid is not doing well on academic and interpersonal aspects of life. Luckily, the kid graduated from high school. It's time for the kid to enter college. But this time, they need to live together on a house near to the campus.

The kid meets new people and also met the person who will save the kid and help to stop repeating the misdeed of the kid. The friend said that it would be better if the kid would write a letter to admit the kid's misdeeds. The kid heeded the advice of the friend. When the mother reads the letter, she felt bad for letting the bad things happen to her beloved kid. They had a small talk, and that unrequited love changed again. The kid felt guilty and tried to change. But it wasn't easy for the kid to change ways immediately. 

The kid was able to finish college and pass the board exam and also lessen the instances of doing the misdeed. Now, the kid is currently working and that kid realizes that it needs the love from the mother. The kid now reciprocates the love. One of the things that make the child cry is when it's all about the mother. And one of the things that inspire the kid to stay to the current job (because the kid has problems coping with pressure and stress) is to help the mother with their financial needs.

THE END. ^.^v

I'm hoping that when the time comes for me to be a mother, I'll be able to manage time properly to be hands on guiding my future kids while they're growing (depends on how many kids will be given by God to me and my future husband). I know it's hard to be a mother, but IT'S THE BEST and MOST REWARDING JOB (next to BEING a TEACHER).

Kids, APPRECIATE and LOVE your mothers while you still can (even though it's not Mothers' Day). Don't take them for granted. Especially for girls, you'll be a mother too. 

And, It's not too late for us to change ways and RECIPROCATE our mother's love.

*Sorry for the wrong grammar and subject-verb agreement, I'm not that good with English because it's a second language. 

Source for the quote:  http://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/mothers-love